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Monday Mornings ? ?: Christian Gonzalez

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Going class to class a piece of me breaks 

Going from floor to floor my heart aches

When will this day ever end?

When will I come home again?

 

Exhaustion pours out from every bone 

Let alone, my shaking legs that yearn for some rest 

I wish I could go back to kindergarten, where nap time was my favorite 

My life wasn’t as complicated, and I wish I had savored it 

 

I hope I can get some sleep tonight

I cannot take it anymore

Nightly darkest thoughts

spike my soul as they outpour

 

For now I can’t do much, I have to find a place to lie down.

I want to slay these demons, lay my head down for a rest.

Yes, let me forget about life for now

But this, no the world would never allow.

My eyes scurry from place to place, I can’t help thinking about the comfort of my youth

Need my eyes shut for a few minutes 

But these people have put a limit. 

It’s cyclical, physical, typical and surely despicable.

 

I call out, I shout into this void.

When will this day ever end?

When will I come home again?

These questions remain unanswered

Cause we all know it, this is our home, this is what we made of it.