by Erin Ajello
Permanent jet lag
I have no time zone that suits my sleeping patterns
It’s not that I’m up all night
It’s that I’d rather be an insomniac than sleep my life away when sleeping feels so mortal
I so hate to feel mortal
I’d live forever just to feel immortal
But no
I sleep and wake
Every day
Predictable pattern
I scorn it as I scorn them
I board planes in my mind
To escape this plain dull time
I have traveled everywhere
Gone everywhere
Fallen in love absolutely everywhere
Though I hate to feel tired from my travels when I haven’t traveled at all
But my head aches and my body feels sore and I am tired
Oh so tired
I awake from each rest more tired
Yet I’d sleep never more if I could spend each moment running
Rushing
Leaving
Here
Behind
(Leaving her behind)
I’ve no one to leave behind
I’d stay awake but I need to dream
And all my best thoughts come only in sleep
I am a success only in my dreams
Nighttime fantasies
I go once more to sleep
Permanent jet lag,
I’d love to feel jet lagged,
I’d love to travel away from here.
