by Matthew Spataro
As I lay myself at the mercy of the river
I gather my thoughts and reflect
On the life that I’ve led, the life of a sinner
And hope I’ll find forgiveness yet
I stand at the river’s edge
Dirty, marked, unclean
But it’s here that I make my pledge
To be better than what I’ve been
There’s a past chained to me
It weighs me down heavy
And all I want to be
Is free
I let the water rush over me
Wash away my sins, my doubts, my fears
Send it all down with the current
Along with my unshed tears
I swear I feel lighter
My soul a bit brighter
I come back better than before
I am me, once more
I got used to the dark where I was kept
My light eclipsed by the shadows of others
It was as if I acted while my conscience slept
And once awake I begged for penance
Didn’t think that I deserved it
Had myself convinced I belonged there
Spent so long in the poison
I choked on the fresh air
It’s so hard to pin down what I feel
Broken by thoughts made of steel
Hurt me like they were real
Now I just want to heal
I let the water rush over me
Wash away my sins, my doubts, my fears
Send it all down with the current
Along with my unshed tears
I swear I feel lighter
My soul a bit brighter
I come back better than before
I am me, once more
It’s never too late to make the change
To step back into the light
At first it might feel strange
You’re not used to the sight
But it gets…
Easier
I let the water rush over me
Wash away my sins, my doubts, my fears
Send it all down with the current
Along with my unshed tears
I swear I feel lighter
My soul a bit brighter
I come back better than before
I am me, once more
I am me, once more
I am me, again
And it’s me that I will stay
