Sep 11 2012
My Authentic Moment
Everything had to be prepared from the scratch, from recruiting, choosing a song piece, transposing, analysis, conducting, and playing. It seemed almost impossible for one person to handle. Some how I was never frustrated or tired. I enjoyed every single process and it did not feel like I was wasting one single second. As practice sessions went on, I felt more confident not just in playing but instructing the group.
Throughout my life, I have been constantly been discouraging myself from entering the musical field assuming it’s only for the extremely gifted and privileged. I was perplexed by the situation of wanting to pursue violin as more than a hobby while acknowledging the fact that I would not be able to devote my entire life and career into the field.
But here, the solution was. No matter what other people may say, pointing out that I did not have enough credentials or professional training, this was my tribute to God through the gift he had given me.
This is my shoulder rest for my first full size violin. It symbolizes confidence. Without confidence, I would not have been able to step up from my comfort zone and discover other potentials.
I loved your story, Nayoung, because I’m also not one to volunteer, even when I’d probably do a decent job. Kudos to you for stepping up! Also, the object you wrote on was really cool, and the way you unwound it mirrored your story where you had to unwind all your fears to reveal how capable and talented you are.