Watching The Jungle that night on December 5th was probably one of the rawest and emotionally charged things I’ve ever experienced. I knew as soon as I walked into that set, sitting down at one of the tables, that things were about to become very real and very personal. One of the actors was walking around and pouring tea for guests, and he was totally in character. As he came before me, he greeted me and asked how I was in Arabic. I’ve always been one to immediately leap at the chance to connect with another person who shares my heritage, so I shyly told him I was fine with what little Arabic I know. I remember feeling so happy as he smiled and had a short conversation with me in English about where me and my parents were from. From then on, I felt like I was a part of something much bigger than myself, and I was about to witness it in the form of a play.
There were many moments, scenes, or speeches in the play that took my breath away and left me reeling, but one of the most striking was the image of Alan Kurdi being shown on the televisions in the room. It was dead silent as I and the rest of the audience solemnly studied the image of a little boy, unmoving, gently being caressed by the tide on the beaches of Turkey. I remember seeing that image back in 2015 and crying my eyes out. Even now, the blurriness in my eyes comes back as I think of Alan, who should still be alive. Alan’s life was already jeopardized by the war in Syria; if anything, he should have made it to Europe. I think of Alan and think of all the children all over the world who suffer things just like this. We failed him. Our governments failed him.
When Norullah fired that gunshot I jumped so badly I lost focused for a second. The light, the smoke, the sound – it felt all too real. I almost thought an actual bullet at been lodged in the ceiling. And later, when the French police were ‘demolishing’ the restaurant and lifting the roof off, I felt as if I were experiencing so many different sensations and emotions and thoughts that I felt overwhelmed. It gives me goosebumps to remember that people hear and go through things like that everyday, and that’s become a way of life. That’s what Alan was trying to escape from. And there, in the Jungle of Calais, that’s what they were all trying to escape from. They were all united by their common traumas and their desperation for something better. They were united by their desire to create a home away from the one they left.
I was devastated that the play ended on such a somber note. It wasn’t a happy ending by any definition of the phrase. I can only hope that productions like the play help bring the plight of refugees and migrants to the center of attention to people living in relative peace all over the world. And if it makes people uncomfortable?That means it’s doing something right.